I haven't blogged in forever, but I really want to start keeping up with this an blogging regularly, more so for me than you. I journal constantly, but sometimes it's hard to write everything down and still have time for everything else. So, yes.
I have never wanted to be a person who lives to please people. I hate conforming. Uniqueness is precious in my mind. You know? I like being different, not following society. Set apart. That's what God calls it at least. :) Critics, jump in line- let's hear it. Like I mentioned before, I'm not living to please people. I like to please my Creator. It's not in a "I'm better than you sort of way"- because I certainly am not. I just don't live my life for people, nor for myself. I live it for the Lord. Have a problem with me talking about Jesus constantly? Okay. That doesn't at all mean I'm going to close my mouth for one minute. I will praise Him with my last dying breath. And after I "die" I will praise Him for all of eternity. :) I look at it this way- when you're madly in love with someone, you talk about them constantly. Well the same applies to me, I'm in love and I won't keep quiet about it. This blog probably will talk about my Love more than anything else. I won't push it down your throat, but if you don't want to hear it- simply choose not to listen. :)
Anyways, I've been wondering some things lately. Risks- to take them or not? Avoid risks to avoid getting hurt, or abandon all fears of taking risks? Hmm. Another thing- why do people make things harder and more complicated than necessary? I hate games. Mind games, manipulation games, and confusion games. You know, people play games in life. I like people who are honest and straight forward. Okay, okay- so I have not perfected this, but I never will. I try to be straight forward and always honest, but I do tend to hold myself back/hold things back until I feel like I can be vulnerable. This makes me think of guarding your heart. DANG- guarding your heart is like, the HARDEST thing to do ever. Jesus has my heart 100%, but it's hard to tell who to let in, and when to be vulnerable. I'd like to think I'm pretty vulnerable, in a good way, but I don't want to be too vulnerable. Complication is no good. haha ...
I just talked to a friend who has been working in the afternoons in a Hospice place. She told me how it really puts things into perspective... especially the little things- for instance, complaining about tests and whatnot. But people out there are dying. Their clock is ticking out of time. Yet I am sitting here complaining about getting an education while I am breathing and living without any problems? I want to embrace each day like that- don't complain about getting to do something while I have time. Food for thought.
Blahhh it's late, I still have loads of reading to do for class- embrace it :) Sorry if my thoughts seem to be running together.
Here are some songs that I've found myself digging lately (lolz):
*In my Head- Jason DeRulo (it's really catchy)
*Electrify- Mutemath
*Say so- My Favorite Highway
*Answer- Blake & Kate
*She is Love- Parachute
*1000 things- Jason Mraz
Love y'all!
Check it.
Moving, breathing, and living in Him,
Meagan :)
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