"Speak Life With My Words"

My step-mom has this book called "His Princess: Love Letters From Your King" full of Love letters from God. This one that I found, and love. I desire to apply this to my life, and speak life, always. I want to speak words that would honor and glorify my King and bring life to our desperate world.

"My Princess, Speak Life With My Words"

My child, I love your mouth because it is Mine- ready to be filled with My words. Did you know that I've anointed your beautiful lips with the power to speak life to a lifeless world? While others are using their lips to spread worthless words, you, My princess, have the privilege of changing people's perspectives and empowering them to make life changing choices that point them to Me. Your words will be more valuable than priceless jewels. I want you to come to Me in prayer everyday, I will line your lips with love, wisdom, and encouragement and make your mouth My masterpiece for all who see you speak.
Love,
Your King and Counselor

"Let the words of Christ, in all their richness, live in your hearts and make you wise. Use His words to teach and counsel each other. Sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs to God with thankful hearts. And whatever you do or say, let it be as a representative of Lord Jesus." (Colossians 3:16-17)

It's been ages...

So I haven't blogged in a while, and thus have not met my goal of trying to blog more. haha.
I had previously talked about some stuff God was doing a while back. One of those things being the possibility of transferring to a College in Boston. Well, God has completely shifted all of that in the past few weeks, and even months.
He is awesome like that.

I am becoming even more aware of all the ways God is working in my life and the lives of others daily. He never stops or leaves. God invests Himself into even the smallest details of our lives. It is so cool.

I have been thinking about how much God has worked in my heart and in my life this year. It is crazy how much I have changed and grown in the past year. God has worked in my heart, my family, and in my friends. He has exceeded all of the expectations I have ever had about what this year would look like, and what college would be like. I am so thankful that He has brought me through so much and has brought me so far. I remember just 6 months ago when I was struggling with rebellion towards my parents. I am shocked at how different I am today than I was then. God has shown me how much my parents do for me, and how they provide for me in ways that may seem insignificant to me, but are a big deal.

Another thing God has done for me this year is change my perspective and change the way I see the world, others, myself, and Jesus. He has given me Kingdom eyes in exchange for worldly vision. It is so cool to be able to look at people now and see things that God sees in them- all the potential and greatness that they hold. Man, I used to see people with such judgmental and critical eyes. There is no way I could view the world the way I do now without God giving me new eyes and perspective to view things. I also am able to view my circumstances in such a different light. God has given me an irrevocable joy that is not dependent upon my circumstances and situations I face. In the most challenging and trying times that I have faced this year, God has always been constant. God has shown me to cling to Him and trust in Him no matter what the world around me says or looks like.

God has also rocked my identity. He has shown me who I am in Him, and what He thinks about me. My identity has slowly but surely been rooted in Jesus Christ alone. And when someone has an identity that is dependent upon Him, then it can NEVER be shaken. God has given me confidence in this identity, so that no man or person can define me. I cannot be swayed, influenced, or even bothered by the opinions of others. This is definitely one of the coolest things God has done in my life this year. When I was younger, and even a year ago, I used to care so much about what other people thought about me. But now that my security and value comes from God alone, negative words or opinions or criticism do not influence my identity. I live to please God alone, and I live for Him. I live for His approval, not man's. :)

I'm not saying I am anywhere near perfect because, well, come on- we all know that isn't true. I'm just saying that God has taken a bunch of my mess, and has made me into a more complete and whole person this year. I have grown so much, it's amazing. The ways I have changed, and how quickly I have changed is astounding. There is no way that these changes came from my working or striving. God has transformed me. I am so thankful for that. :)

This summer brings many opportunities for growth and service towards others. I am excited for this season and for all that God has in store for me. I hope to be purposeful each day and look for the ways God is working around me daily!

God Bless<3

fantastic summer things :)

I just thought I'd make a list of all the great things that await me this summer:

I can't wait for:

*my life guarding job
*reading for fun, and not because I have to for class.
*swimming with my little sisters, Izzy & Macey
*Macey's first swim in the pool.
*walking barefoot everywhere
* seeing my family all the time (I know they will get on my nerves at some point, but I miss them when I'm at school)
*turks and caicos at the end of July
*kansas city IHOP road trip with lucas, amber, and jono :)
*camping trip with friends
*sno cones (bahama bucks!!)
*MY 19TH BIRTHDAY :D
*wearing cowboy boots with dresses and shorts (summer in Texas thing) :)
*sitting under the stars on Texas summer nights
*going to the park all the time
*painted toenails :)
*getting to hang out with my gateway friends/home friends
*gateway church
*working in the nursery at gateway :)
*SE7EN and roots with my friends
*sleepovers and hangouts with britt buchanan my bff
*bickering with shannon :)
*runner's tan lines from the summer
*the beach!
*icecream cake on my birthday!
*swimming, duh!
*summer picnics
*bike rides
*yogurtland
*running in the summer heat
*summer night swims
*roasting marshmallows on my fire pit in the backyard!
*sunshine :)
*sunglasses!
*sandals and flip flops
*complaining about how hot texas heat is ;)
*visitng Boston, possibly :)
*summer sunsets
*sleeping in as much as possible
*staying up late
*no homework or class :)


Texas summers are the best. :) 31 DAYS UNTIL SUMMER FOR ME :D HOLLA!

This could possibly be the theme song of my life currently/ in the next 6 months... :)

"Boston" by Augustana

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly him out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.



Emerson, I hope to be seeing you soon.

<3

Surveys in the place of sleep.

RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3
You have to be honest!



Asked someone to marry you?
guilty

Someone asked you to marry them?
guilty

Kissed one of your Facebook friends?
guilty

Danced on a table in a bar?
innocent

Ever told a lie?
Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back?
Guilty

Ever had feelings for your friend’s man?
guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
innocent

Kissed a picture?
Guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school?
guilty

Held a snake?
Guilty

Been suspended from school?
Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent

Stolen from a store?
guilty

Been fired from a job?
guilty

Done something you regret?
Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Guilty

Sat on a roof top?
Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn’t?
Guilty

Sang in the shower?
Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Guilty

Shaved your head?
Innocent

Slept naked?
innocent

Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

Been in a band?
Guilty

Donated Blood?
guilty

Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent

Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

Still love someone you shouldn’t?
guilty

Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent

Liked (like) someone, but will never tell who?
Guilty

Been too honest?
Guilty

Ruined a surprise?
Guilty


Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can’t walk afterwards?
Guilty

Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if your a guy) or man’s clothes (if your a girl)?
Guilty

Joined a pageant?
innocent

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty

Had communication with your ex?
Guilty

Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
innocent

A total stranger treat you by paying your bus fare?
Innocent

Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

Stolen somebodies partner?
Innocent

Made yourself throw up?
Guilty

Wanted to be someone else?
Guilty


ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: yes, but ask Jesus.
B - BIRTHDAY: June 23
C - CRUSHING ON: someone who doesn't like me back- surprise, surprise, I guess. But I got Jesus so I don't need a man. :)
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: water.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: brittany buchanan.
F - FAVORITE SONG: I have several!
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummy bears! unless it’s sour worms.
H - HOMETOWN: Southlake.
I - IN LOVE WITH:Jesus Christ.
J - JUGGLE: I wish I could!
K - KILLED SOMEONE: On video games!
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE:california-20ish hours?
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: depends on my craving!
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 3 lovely sisters :)
O - ONE WISH: Boston.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: my daddy.
R- REASON TO SMILE: Jesus!
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Something by Lady Gaga
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 9:20
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: I'll keep it to myself :)
V - VEGETABLE(S): anything green!
W - WORST HABIT: poping my back, neck, and knuckles. and interrupting people sometimes.
X - X-RAYS YOU’VE HAD: a lot.
Y – YOYOS ARE: old!
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: cancer

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: mgn
What color do you wear most? purple
Least favorite color? brown
What are you listening to? augustana-Boston - current possible theme song of my life.
Are you happy with your life right now? I have joy despite circumstances.
What is your favorite class in school? missionary biographies
When do you start back at school/college? i'm currently in college
Are you outgoing? Most of the time.
Favorite pair of shoes? Converse!!!! and i like my TOMS too :)
Where do you wish you were right now? Physically in the arms of Jesus!

THE CANS:
Can you dance? Not so much.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? nope!
Can you whistle? certainly!
Write with both hands? yeah. but my left hand looks terrible!
Walk with your toes curled? doubt it!

THE DO’S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?nope!
Do you believe in miracles? Yes, I've witnessed them!
Do you believe in magic? Jesus
Love at first sight? somewhat, yes.
Do you believe in Satan? He exists, yup.
Do you believe in Santa? the spirit of santa- sure!
Do you know how to swim? yeppp! competitive swimming for 12 years of my life!
Do you like roller coasters? sometimes!
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? heck yeah!

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane? many times!
Have you ever asked someone out? Naw. I’ll make a first move, but I’ll never ask someone out.
Have you ever been asked out by someone? yes.
Have you ever been to the ocean? YESSSS!!
Have you ever painted your nails? all the time, it's an obsession!

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside? 60 degrees.
What radio station do you listen to? more than just one.
What was the last restaurant you ate at? uhhh... i don't remember
What was the last thing you bought? food.
What was the last thing on TV you watched? Friends on my macbook, does that count?

THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM’d? Nicole.
Who was the last person you took a picture of? jenn and asja!
Who was the last person you said I love you to? victoria!

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out: many times!
Ever cried yourself to sleep? many times!
Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder? definitely.
Ever cried over the opposite sex? many times.
Do you cry when you get an injury? sometimes.
Do certain songs make you cry? yes!

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? JOY.
What can make you happy? Jesus, friends, family, running, the outdoors, reading, writing, traveling, hugs etc.
Do you wish you were happier? sometimes
Can music make you happy? definitely

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken? 3ish times.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them? I thought so, yeah. Yes.

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color? blonde :)
Have any tattoos? Nope. but I want 2.
Eye color? blue :)

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: Nope.
Mooned someone: Yes haha
Ran away from home? Tried.
Laughed so hard you cried: all the time!
Cried in school: yes.
Thrown up in a store: yes.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: of course.

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: neither, but if i had to pick- coke.
McDonald’s or Burger King: ew. if i had to pick- mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates: single!
Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE.
Strawberries or Blueberries: strawberries!
Meat or Veggies: both!
TV or Movie: movies
Guitar or Drums: guitar
Adidas or Nike: nike! :)
Chinese or Mexican: i am in love with both!
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: cheerios
Cake or Pie: cake.

goodnight moon.

Emotions

I went for a drive tonight. I tend to do that when I have a lot on my mind, and just want to get away for a bit. I cranked up some worship music and just soaked in God's presence. It was really good to encounter God that way after having an emotional afternoon.
I told God that I was sorry He has to put up with my emotions. But then He sweetly reminded me that He gave me my emotions, longings, and desires. He knows my heart, my emotions, and my frustrations even better than I think I do. He loves me. He crafted me in His image. God has emotions, too. He even wept when He was on earth. (shortest verse ever "Jesus wept.") What a powerful scripture though! Jesus experienced emotional strife, grief, and sorrow just like we do! Images of the afternoon I spent crying - because I'm such an emotional girl sometimes (haha)- flashed through my mind while I drove. I mean, I'm being completely vulnerable here. I cried this afternoon for the first time in a while, I mean really cried. It was more out of frustration and longing than out of sadness. Another image flashed in my head, and this time Jesus was laying on my bed next to me. He was weeping with me, catching my tears, and experiencing the broken-heartedness that I was feeling in that moment.
In my car tonight, Jesus wiped the tears away. He restored my soul and reminded me of His faithful love that never breaks my heart and that will never leave me. He reminded me of His promises for my future... reminded me that I lack no good thing and that He withholds NOTHING from me... and that He will give me my heart's desire because HE is my heart's desire first. While there may be pain in the night of this area of my heart- joy will come in the morning. Joy and abundance greater than I could think or imagine. God fills my every need. He completes my heart and gives me hope for the promises yet to come true. Most of all, He weeps with me. He feels emotions, too. He experiences heartbreak over the things I am sorrowed by. When my soul is feeling cast down, His uncircumstantial joy fills me up. The joy of the LORD is my strength.

"You fill me. You see me. You know my every move and You love for me to sing to You. I know that You are for me. I know that You are for me. I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness. I know that You have come down, even if to write upon my heart to remind me of who You are."

Thank You, God, for reminding me of Your powerful, filling, romantic, abundant, and unending love. Thank You for being with me when I cry, and for sending me new, fresh encounters with Your love when I feel unloved by people. Your grace is sufficient, and Your love is more than enough for me. Your love is greater than any human love.

God's love cannot be beat! <3

Road Rage

I am extremely guilty of that thing called road rage. I might use excuses such as "people are idiots and don't know how to drive" "that guy was riding my bumper when I was already going 10 over the speed limit" "unsafe drivers should not be allowed on the road." etc.
While driving back to Abilene after being home last weekend I encountered many crazy people on the road who immensely frustrated me. I can't control anyone but myself. And even if people are driving dangerously, selfishly, and idiotically- I still choose how I react to that.
To be honest, I have been one to lay on my horn for multiple seconds when someone cuts me off, doesn't use their blinker & then cuts me off, or almost smashes into my car. I also am one to pump the breaks when that driver who is always in a hurry rides my bumper and isn't patient. And I even sometimes shake my head when that driver rudely passes me. Would Jesus respond in this way? Hmm...

As I said, I am only in control of me. My actions, and better yet- my driving, is reflection of myself and of the God I claim as my Savior. I have a big "not of this world" cross on my back window of my car. I am repping Christ on my automobile each time I drive it. Does my driving represent Him though? I want my actions to continually be reflective of His love and of who He is. Even when people frustrate me on the road- I still want to drive in a way that supports that bumper sticker that is on my car for all to see.

Not just in driving, but in everything I do- and everywhere I go- I represent Jesus (whether it be positively or negatively). I'd like to positively display HIm through my actions, and be a reflection of His love & character at ALL times.

Food for though!

Peace & Love y'all! <3

Let's get real for a minute...

The way that you dwell in the past makes me feel like I'm not good enough.
It makes me not feel very valuable.
But hold up... My value doesn't come from you in the first place, although it would just be nice to know that I am desired by a human being...
appreciated for who I really am...
chosen first above the other billions to choose from.
I want to be the first choice.
I want to be desirable because I have something unique to offer that no one else can give you.
I just want to feel secure.
I want to not be afraid, and to not hold back anything.
I have so much to give.
I wish I knew that was not only noticed, but longed for.
I want to feel so comfortable that I can just throw everything all out on the table... the good, the bad, but most of all the potential.
I want to experience human love like I never have before.
I'm not saying I need you and am desperate for you,
because I am a whole, complete person and I lack nothing, but the experience of this kind of human love.
I'm not asking you to give me what you do not have.
I would desire every part of you that makes you who you are.
The extreme amount of loyalty I have- I want you to cherish that.
I desire for you to catch a glimpse of the depth of my soul.
I want you to be captivated by me.
I desire for you to be drawn to my heart.
I want you to know how valuable I am.
I want to make you laugh, and for you to love my laugh.
I want to be missed by you.
I so desire for you to fix your eyes upon me, in a state of vulnerability, and know that you see me...
that you see the beauty I offer to the world... the love I could offer you...
I want to bring a smile to your face every time you see me...
I don't want to be out of sight, and especially not out of your mind...
I have experienced the greatest Love out there to the fullest....
And now I am not only curious about, but I yearn for a new level of human love...

I often wonder if such a love exists because I have yet to experience it, but I know it has to exist because I know the Maker of love.

I yearn for this human companionship where I see and love you for what you are and for what you're not. And where you choose me, and choose to love every part of me.


I'm just being real.

Western Mindset of Self Promotion and Self Awareness...

Before I say anything, I just want to admit that I am as equally guilty as the next person... I have been selfish. I have been so selfish.

Tonight, ACU had a Chapel forum for Invisible Children. Representatives from IC came, showed a video, and spoke to us. It was a really moving experience for me. Now, I knew about Invisible Children in high school and helped out at the time. I never really became as passionate about it in high school, as I became tonight.
I'm generally a pretty sensitive and compassionate person, but tonight I just broke down crying.

Living in America, we can be so caught up in ourselves, our problems, and our wants and needs. The world tells you to seek promoting yourself and climb the ladder of American success. They tell you to chase the American Dream and to pursue the dollar sign. They say that your value comes from what you do and how successful you are at it, the money you make, and the possessions you own. You don't have time to worry about the world outside your own four walls because it's all about "me, me, me." Success in America's eyes all promotes self. We're too focused on our latest device of technology, and picking out what outfit to wear the next day. Western culture is go, go, go and don't stop. Don't you dare stop or take your eyes off of yourself. If you do then success and the American Dream will take longer to achieve. People who are hurting? People who are starving, dying, and lost? No, no- they don't exist because they're not inside the 4 walls that I dwell in. If I don't see it, and if it doesn't involve me, then why care? Why pay attention to anyone other than yourself? This is what Western culture and America promotes. We're all about independence with a capital I!

I realized tonight that I, too, have fallen into this cultural trap. My heart does cry out for and desperately wants to help those who are in need and who are hurting- I really do. But, I am a perpetrator of this cultural "me" -focused mentality. I get caught up in accomplishing what's on my to-do list, managing my time, and in typical American lifestyle things. This world is bigger than just me. I am just one person. It's not all about me. It's not all about what I have to get done and whether or not I have time to do things other than what I planned. This life that I live is not FOR or ABOUT me. Yes, I get the privilege of living this life, but it is a PRIVILEGE like I said before. I get to life this life because I am here for a purpose. A purpose that is bigger than myself. I have been given the breath of life so that I can help others around me and glorify the One who has given me breath. My agenda, my wants and needs, and my time is NOT meant to be all about me. It's about HIM and THEM. That's what it's for. I am one person, but I am living, moving, and breathing so that I can touch the lives of MANY people in need.

God re-awakened my heart tonight for our broken world. It's bigger than the four walls I reside in. It's bigger than me. It's bigger than Texas. It's much greater than America. It's world-wide. We all hurt and have needs. This world is in pain. It is crying out for a generation to take a stand, and to take their eyes off of themselves and focus on OTHERS. A world in need is crying out for a Solution, crying out for hope and peace, and crying out for meaning. Human beings everywhere are crying out for LOVE. Not the FASAD that is love, but the REAL THING.

This is burning in my bones, and is at the core of who I am. I want to bring LOVE, REAL LOVE. I want to bring a culture of LOVE to this desperate planet. A LOVE BIGGER THAN JUST ME. AGAPE LOVE.


Are you aware of the world around you? the people around you? the bigger picture?

Just thoughts.


LOVE y'all & God Bless! <3

I am Meagan Whitson, and I am beyond excited right now. :)

Life is Journey

I know, I know, it's been a while since I have posted last, but I've been a busy college kid! haha...

Anyways, many exciting and new things have been happening in my life since we've last chatted. I recently went home for a night last weekend. I saw my family and my best friend, and it was such a good time! I babysat my littlest sisters Macey and Izzy. They're so precious. Izzy is 5 and she is becoming so grown up! She was instructing me on how to bathe and take care of Macey, it was cute! Macey is almost 6 months and she is laughing, smiling, talking, and playing more! She's so sweet and CUTE! My sister who is a year younger than me filled me in on life at home later that night. My family and I celebrated my step-mom's birthday too. I had a good coffee talk with my mom about my future. :) I am so blessed to have the family that I have. God has totally brought me into a place of deeper appreciation for my family, especially my parents. Parents, contrary to previous statements and feelings I have had towards them, are indeed a great idea that God had. Parents do so much! They not only financially and physically provide for their children, but also emotionally provide and support them. I would definitely be the person I am today without my great parents!

So, back to the new things. God is bringing me to a deeper level of faith and trust in Him, especially regarding the plans He has for my future. I feel that God is taking and calling me to a new place... in many different ways and meanings. I'm so excited for this new season of life that is approaching! At the same time, it requires me to stand on the edge of a deep cliff and just jump off with everything that I have trusting that God will catch me. It's thrilling and exciting, yet there is a definite sense of the unknown. The one thing I do know is that God will catch me when I jump- no questions asked. He's calling me to take the biggest leap of blind faith I have ever taken in my life. I know His plans for me are nothing but the best. I fully believe that with all of my heart- it's not just something I am saying to sound good. I am so pumped. God is making my dreams come alive. He cares about my dreams and desires. With Him, my dreams will become a reality. In this season of transition, I know that God is calling me to do things that are bigger than myself. If I can do it on my own, then it's not of God. I can't do anything without Him. God is so, so, so faithful! I cannot wait to see what He has in store for me next on this beautiful journey...

Life is a journey and a grand adventure! There are highs and lows, and One constant. There are many obstacles. I am starting to see how these obstacles are just opportunities; opportunities to grow, become stronger, and to embrace what life is giving you. Obstacles are part of the adventure. You can find adventure in the challenges thrown your way, or you can allow the obstacle to claim victory over you life. I am more than a conqueror. I have victory over every obstacle. I know the outcome- my God wins, and because of His victory, I too am victorious. No obstacle is too big for me, because my God is bigger than them all. The obstacle is an opportunity. I can choose to be joyful or discouraged when an obstacle comes knocking on my door. I choose JOY.-Joy in the Lord! Many people think that I don't ever face challenges in life because I have constant joy. Joy from the Lord alone. I have troubles and hard times too; I am just choosing to rejoice through the obstacles and remind myself that I already know the outcome- God already knows the outcome. VICTORY. I am VICTORIOUS. The obstacles add to the adventure. I love adventure, it's in the very core of who I am- adventurous. There is adventure in the journey. I know my destination, so there is no need for me to doubt my GPS system. Discouragement will not dominate me and will not ruin my adventure. I have the best travel companion ever, too. He knows the way and lights my path when I can't see. There could never be a greater adventure than the journey of life with Him. My shoes are laced up and I'm ready to go. I won't quit, or slow down.

Sorry for the great length of this post. :)

Love y'all and God Bless! <3

I am Meagan Whitson, and I just had an impromptu dance party in my dorm room when no one was around.

Embrace the journey!

Recently

Howdy readers!

I just thought I'd post about things that are new/recent in my life lately.

God has been so good. He's always at work in me, and my heart through the imperfections and all.

I have been considering changing my major from Vocational Missions to Nutrition. I still very much have a heart for missions, but having a degree in something else will surely open up doors to enter other countries where missionaries are not allowed. And having a nutrition degree will allow me to have a job besides just ministry where I can provide for myself whether that is in the U.S or another country. I can probably take nutrition to countries that are malnourished and starving. It's just an idea. I'm praying a lot about it right now.

I've been trying to find a job lately. I haven't found anything on campus, so I am applying for a position at a day care that my good friend Nicole works at in Abilene. Because of this my parents are considering giving me my car back next weekend. :) I hope they decide yes! :)

God is so faithful! He always provides for me! I love it!

My best friend recently got in a bad car wreck and has minor injuries physically, but is having a hard time. I miss her. She lives back home. If you think about it, please lift her up in prayer! Prayers would be greatly appreciated I am sure! :)

God is bringing me into a deeper appreciation for my family and friends, especially my family. In the past I have overlooked how much my parents do for me. They provide for me not only physically and financially, but spiritually and emotionally too. They are great parents. Sometimes it takes getting away from your parents to truly see and understand how great they really are. I miss them, and my 3 little sisters. :) Hopefully I will get to see them soon. :)

It snowed here a lot yesterday! We had afternoon classes cancelled. It was pretty & fun! :)

I have recently rediscovered my love for Hillsong worship! It's SOOOO good. :) I've been listening non-stop lately. I especially love "Where We Belong" from the This is Our God album.

I am so excited that SUNDAY is Valentine's day! Because it's Jesus Valentines Day! :) He's the best Valentine and I get to spend time with Him Sunday & make the day about Him and me. :) I can't wait!

That's what's been going on in my life lately!

Be Blessed! Love y'all!

1 Peter 1:24-25 "People are like grass; their beauty is like a flower in the field. The grass withers and the flower fades. But the word of the Lord remains forever."

I am Meagan Whitson, and I am wearing black nail polish right now. :)

Nothing out of the ordinary, but something extraordinary.

I am so incredibly, immensely, and extravagantly blessed. Here are a few of the reasons for this:

Jesus adores me. I have a beautiful family, that I miss. God has placed the best friends into my life and is continuing to bless me with more new friendships. God makes me laugh. My friends make me laugh. Life is beautiful, even on the stormy days. My moods don't affect my state of being. I have constant joy because Jesus is my constant companion. God continues to woo, pursue, and chase after my heart every single minute of every single day; and because of that I am completely and truly satisfied. God fulfills all of my needs and desires from the deepest longings of my heart to things one might consider small and minute.

I honestly have nothing out of the ordinary to be so happy about. I am happy, joyous, pleased, and complete on an extreme level. It's not because of any amazing circumstance or event that is occurring in my life right now. It's simply because I am loved by the King and have found utter completion and wholeness in that. Nothing can kill or steal my joy. It's found in the hands of Jesus, therefore no person, place, thing, event, or circumstance can cause me to lack in joy. JOY JOY JOY. Jesus holds my joy and provides my joy, so I have joy forever. Joy in who God is and who He says I am.

Valentine's Day is approaching. I hadn't really thought about it until today. As I've said, I don't need a man to be romanced and to experience true love. My God is my Lover, Husband, and Romancer. So this Valentines Day I am reminded who the Lover of my soul is. :)

I am growing more and more in awe of the reality of who Jesus Christ is. And, let me tell you- He is the REAL DEAL. I wouldn't invest all of my heart, all of my soul, all of my time, and all of my every being into Him if I didn't know with all of my heart and mind that He is the real deal.

I think you should get to know Jesus, if you don't already know him. He wants to know your heart and wants to know you personally. :)

I'm Meagan Whitson, and I have an obnoxious laugh that is contagious. :)

Love y'all :)

hope.

I have come to find that when I put my hope in anything other than God, I am always disappointed. I mean seriously, any little ounce of hope that I place in another person or thing, I am always reminded at how unfailing God is and how much this world we live in fails.

Have you ever randomly heard God's voice when not expecting it? Yep, that's what just happened to me. Except, I'm debating whether it was really Him that I heard. I mean this just hit the depth of my heart and soul. Part of me wants to really believe that it was just a random thought of my own. This shocker thought, moment, and simple sentence I just heard made me realize that I had been putting hope in something other than God.

I don't know. I'm confused. God will clear it up. I know His voice, I know Him, but I am doubtful because I don't want that to have been something God said to me.

God gives us all a choice. God is choice and love is a choice. hmm.

I want to put all of my HOPE in GOD because He never fails, and He loves me. I love Him too.

I am Meagan Whitson, and I think too much sometimes.

I wish I could master putting what God wants before what I want.

Enslaved to Writer's Block

Stuck inside these long, blank halls

Held captive by my own restraints

That limit the freedom for flow these thoughts and all.

Is inspiration lurking around the corner?

Or is it the thoughts inside my head roaming in search of escape with no place to stay?

They’re racing, raging , pacing everywhere around me.

Should I set them free or entertain the delay of unbinding?

Creativity lacks me or I disable its passage?

I place the limit; I oppress them without knowing so.

I’m not getting very far.

I put the breaks on when I need to keep moving forward.

My desire is that of the hare, but my existence- the tortoise.

Contradictions bind my progress as if I’m stuck in mud with a rope to pull myself out.

I can’t stand by my words, they fall to the wayside.

Focus is a distant land that I have yet to see with my own eyes.

Concentration has turned into flies buzzing all around.

I convulse without end, and need control and liberty all in the same moment.

I deeply inhale the chaos inside the bars of this prison.

Chasing all that catches my eye,

I can’t seem to finish what I began.

There’s a dream with a deadline, but I allow fear to guide me to failure.

Inspiration, can we be friends? Purpose will you pursue me?

Red rover, red rover, let me come over?

How can the enemy face defeat if the hero is a villain too?

I need a key, an escape, a breakthrough,

a fix, and a cure for this madness.

Is the bridge to conquering stable, or will I indefinitely cause each wooden board to fall beneath my unsteady feet?

The hourglass is reaching capacity. Time hasn’t abandoned me yet.

Will I take the next step?

If I cling to my pen will these words be accepted?

Will they leak out of the ink in my veins, and swim away to safety?

This vicious cycle has pulled me under its current many instances before.

Does it end when they set foot on the shore?

What’s a finish line?

Alien of success,

Let go of me.

Simply, let it be.

αγάπη agápē

Howdy y'all!

I just wanted to blog out my thoughts about something I saw on Twitter today.

"@HolyGod" on Twitter said "Repent and find love." I just find something about that to not makes sense. To repent means to changes one's way of thinking/way of doing. Now, if we think about it, what person is going to "repent" without being led to do so by love? You have to experience God's love first hand before you are going to be drawn to repentance. If love is not the motivating factor for change, as repentance suggests, then there will be no change of heart or mind. I had to experience the depth of God's love and the reality of His love before I ever wanted to change and felt compelled to change. Without LOVE, HIS LOVE, then there will be no repentance. It's like telling someone to stop "sinning" or telling them to "break a bad habit", and expecting them to just stop. If there is no motivation for change, it won't ever happen. Telling a human to stop sinning means nothing, and doesn't work, unless a human has experience the greatness of God's love. It is the love of Jesus Christ that compels us and draws us towards sanctification and wanting to be better follower of Him.

Without love, there is insanity. Insanity is doing the same thing again and again, but expecting different results. Telling someone to change or to not sin is insanity if they have not experience the unfailing, unrelenting, magnificent, and perfect love of God.

Without love we are nothing. Without His love there is never any sort of change. Without love, His love, we cease to exist.

αγάπη= agápē in Greek :)

I φιλíα Y'all! :) (means Philia in Greek, which is friendship/brotherly love)

I can't wait to take Greek next year. yess.

Have a lovely day! :)

ἀγαπητός (Agapetos, or Beloved) of God,

Meagan Kate :)

The Lord Reigns :)

G'day mates! (Imagine that in the australian accent that I wish I had, haha)

It's a cozy, rainy day here in the great city of Abilene. The city that must not believe in rain because it always floods due to the lack of draining systems. haha

I like the rain. I like to stomp through the puddles in my awesome whale rain boots. But wind + rain= no bueno. Some people might find rainy days boring or depressing, but I find them comforting. When it physically rains it makes me think about Jesus reigning. :) My friend's mom has a cool umbrella that says "Jesus reigns," or something along those lines. That's what I think about every time it rains. In my Bible class we've been studying the book of Revelation- which has been so legit! The main point of Revelation is not what the end of the world will be like, although that is clearly discussed in the book. The point of Revelation is to encourage followers of Christ to live in a way like you know that Jesus reigns, and that God's team wins in the end. :) Urgency is a theme of the book. Urgency of living each day like you know that Jesus could come back at any time. Well, urgency "without being an idiot or irresponsible"- as my professor Randy Harris puts it. So to me, the rain is a reminder of who really reigns over the world in the end- Jesus Christ. :) While circumstances and things in the physical realm may show signs opposite of that truth, God's got control- full and complete control. That is what comforts my heart. Rain is beautiful. God is beautiful. God knows and claims the outcome. Do you? It is written. I want to live my life to reflect that I know the outcome. Circumstances and this world might have less power over our lives if all of the followers of Christ claimed the victory and power that Jesus fully claims and possesses.

Just my thoughts.

Live it like you believe & know it to be true.

Love y'allllll :)

He reigns,

Meagan Kate :)

Measuring God's Love...

Good day everyone, or should I say, Good evening! :)

Just sitting here blogging and painting my fingernails. :) yeauh. I am probably obsessed with nail polish a little too much. haha!

But anyways, let's talk! Many excellent things occurred in the previous span of 24 hours for me. First, I decided I'm going to be studying abroad sometime next year. Right now it's looking like I will be studying in Germany next spring (2011). I am so unbelievably pumped. I've filled out most of my application and just have to get my reference forms done, then I will be closer to having my spot reserved for study abroad in Germany. :) The choices were Oxford in the fall and germany in the spring. Here's why I choose Germany: 1. I've already been to England and wasn't a fan. 2. The courses offered in Germany seem more interesting and apply to my major. 3. I've never been to Germany and will have many opportunities that semester to travel all over Europe on small trips. :) So, there's my reasoning! I adore traveling. I want to see as much of God's creation as possible. Traveling is a top passion/goal for my life I guess? Yes. :) I am so excited.

This may be minor to you, but I am an extreme fan of LOST! and tonight was the premiere. It was so good, I enjoyed it! I wish I would have been able to watch it at home with my dad and step mom, who are also hooked on LOST.

I had an amazing run tonight. I had sooooo much built up adrenaline that I needed to let loose. It felt so good. I'm so blessed that God has given me the ability to run. It's one of my favorite ways to connect with God & with nature. :)

I'm really happy with my life right now- not because of current circumstances, but because I am growing more and more with God each day. He is showing me how beautifully He romances me and how He completely meets all of my desires and needs. I've never gotten so close to that place. Falling for God is amazing, because He will always catch me. His feelings for me never leave or run out. I am His bride forever, which I still can't grasp my mind around- but it is freeing. Obviously, I still desire marriage and relationship with my future husband one day- but now I am starting to see how I don't "need" that. You know? I am content with God and He will never fail me. I am starting to completely trust Him. He's taking me deeper and deeper each day. Man, I wish every person in the world could experience His love the way I have! By no means am I a "perfect person" or "perfect follower of Christ." I am far from that, and I most certainly have not mastered faith. God is just increasing my faith. I am growing in my walk with Him- becoming more familiar with His leading and letting myself walk out into the unknown trusting that His plans are for good. And, they definitely are- it's always for my good. He has my best interest at heart. The other day, I was talking with God near my favorite place on campus- Jacob's Dream- and he told me to be quiet because He wanted to tell me what He thought and felt about me. It was funny and amazing at the same time. Funny, that he told me to stop praising him for a minute so He could express His love for me. You know, often times I can't find the words to truly express to God how great He really is because God is not contained by words. That day, God told me that words aren't enough to express His love to me. That makes me think of this verse: Psalm 139: 17-18 "How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. " That's probably one of the most romantic things about God, I think. To try to even imagine the number of ALL of the sand in the ENTIRE WORLD- is just mind boggling. That's a heck of a lot of sand, and a heck of a lot of thoughts all about me, and about you. ;) God is so good! His love is immeasurable! crazy stuff!

Well, it's somewhat late and my sleep schedule hasn't been the best lately, so I'm going to get some shut eye.

I'll post again tomorrow if time permits. :)

Remember, capture each moment of life because time is running out. The clock will stop ticking some day, and eternity will be all that's left. Make it count, make it purposeful, and love without end. Die so you can live.

Love y'all (imagine that with a texan accent that I don't really have ;) )

Just a messenger,

Meagan Kate :)

It's been a while...

hello again world,

I haven't blogged in forever, but I really want to start keeping up with this an blogging regularly, more so for me than you. I journal constantly, but sometimes it's hard to write everything down and still have time for everything else. So, yes.

I have never wanted to be a person who lives to please people. I hate conforming. Uniqueness is precious in my mind. You know? I like being different, not following society. Set apart. That's what God calls it at least. :) Critics, jump in line- let's hear it. Like I mentioned before, I'm not living to please people. I like to please my Creator. It's not in a "I'm better than you sort of way"- because I certainly am not. I just don't live my life for people, nor for myself. I live it for the Lord. Have a problem with me talking about Jesus constantly? Okay. That doesn't at all mean I'm going to close my mouth for one minute. I will praise Him with my last dying breath. And after I "die" I will praise Him for all of eternity. :) I look at it this way- when you're madly in love with someone, you talk about them constantly. Well the same applies to me, I'm in love and I won't keep quiet about it. This blog probably will talk about my Love more than anything else. I won't push it down your throat, but if you don't want to hear it- simply choose not to listen. :)

Anyways, I've been wondering some things lately. Risks- to take them or not? Avoid risks to avoid getting hurt, or abandon all fears of taking risks? Hmm. Another thing- why do people make things harder and more complicated than necessary? I hate games. Mind games, manipulation games, and confusion games. You know, people play games in life. I like people who are honest and straight forward. Okay, okay- so I have not perfected this, but I never will. I try to be straight forward and always honest, but I do tend to hold myself back/hold things back until I feel like I can be vulnerable. This makes me think of guarding your heart. DANG- guarding your heart is like, the HARDEST thing to do ever. Jesus has my heart 100%, but it's hard to tell who to let in, and when to be vulnerable. I'd like to think I'm pretty vulnerable, in a good way, but I don't want to be too vulnerable. Complication is no good. haha ...

I just talked to a friend who has been working in the afternoons in a Hospice place. She told me how it really puts things into perspective... especially the little things- for instance, complaining about tests and whatnot. But people out there are dying. Their clock is ticking out of time. Yet I am sitting here complaining about getting an education while I am breathing and living without any problems? I want to embrace each day like that- don't complain about getting to do something while I have time. Food for thought.

Blahhh it's late, I still have loads of reading to do for class- embrace it :) Sorry if my thoughts seem to be running together.

Here are some songs that I've found myself digging lately (lolz):

*In my Head- Jason DeRulo (it's really catchy)

*Electrify- Mutemath

*Say so- My Favorite Highway

*Answer- Blake & Kate

*She is Love- Parachute

*1000 things- Jason Mraz

Love y'all!

Check it.

Moving, breathing, and living in Him,

Meagan :)