Emotions

I went for a drive tonight. I tend to do that when I have a lot on my mind, and just want to get away for a bit. I cranked up some worship music and just soaked in God's presence. It was really good to encounter God that way after having an emotional afternoon.
I told God that I was sorry He has to put up with my emotions. But then He sweetly reminded me that He gave me my emotions, longings, and desires. He knows my heart, my emotions, and my frustrations even better than I think I do. He loves me. He crafted me in His image. God has emotions, too. He even wept when He was on earth. (shortest verse ever "Jesus wept.") What a powerful scripture though! Jesus experienced emotional strife, grief, and sorrow just like we do! Images of the afternoon I spent crying - because I'm such an emotional girl sometimes (haha)- flashed through my mind while I drove. I mean, I'm being completely vulnerable here. I cried this afternoon for the first time in a while, I mean really cried. It was more out of frustration and longing than out of sadness. Another image flashed in my head, and this time Jesus was laying on my bed next to me. He was weeping with me, catching my tears, and experiencing the broken-heartedness that I was feeling in that moment.
In my car tonight, Jesus wiped the tears away. He restored my soul and reminded me of His faithful love that never breaks my heart and that will never leave me. He reminded me of His promises for my future... reminded me that I lack no good thing and that He withholds NOTHING from me... and that He will give me my heart's desire because HE is my heart's desire first. While there may be pain in the night of this area of my heart- joy will come in the morning. Joy and abundance greater than I could think or imagine. God fills my every need. He completes my heart and gives me hope for the promises yet to come true. Most of all, He weeps with me. He feels emotions, too. He experiences heartbreak over the things I am sorrowed by. When my soul is feeling cast down, His uncircumstantial joy fills me up. The joy of the LORD is my strength.

"You fill me. You see me. You know my every move and You love for me to sing to You. I know that You are for me. I know that You are for me. I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness. I know that You have come down, even if to write upon my heart to remind me of who You are."

Thank You, God, for reminding me of Your powerful, filling, romantic, abundant, and unending love. Thank You for being with me when I cry, and for sending me new, fresh encounters with Your love when I feel unloved by people. Your grace is sufficient, and Your love is more than enough for me. Your love is greater than any human love.

God's love cannot be beat! <3