Let's get real for a minute...

The way that you dwell in the past makes me feel like I'm not good enough.
It makes me not feel very valuable.
But hold up... My value doesn't come from you in the first place, although it would just be nice to know that I am desired by a human being...
appreciated for who I really am...
chosen first above the other billions to choose from.
I want to be the first choice.
I want to be desirable because I have something unique to offer that no one else can give you.
I just want to feel secure.
I want to not be afraid, and to not hold back anything.
I have so much to give.
I wish I knew that was not only noticed, but longed for.
I want to feel so comfortable that I can just throw everything all out on the table... the good, the bad, but most of all the potential.
I want to experience human love like I never have before.
I'm not saying I need you and am desperate for you,
because I am a whole, complete person and I lack nothing, but the experience of this kind of human love.
I'm not asking you to give me what you do not have.
I would desire every part of you that makes you who you are.
The extreme amount of loyalty I have- I want you to cherish that.
I desire for you to catch a glimpse of the depth of my soul.
I want you to be captivated by me.
I desire for you to be drawn to my heart.
I want you to know how valuable I am.
I want to make you laugh, and for you to love my laugh.
I want to be missed by you.
I so desire for you to fix your eyes upon me, in a state of vulnerability, and know that you see me...
that you see the beauty I offer to the world... the love I could offer you...
I want to bring a smile to your face every time you see me...
I don't want to be out of sight, and especially not out of your mind...
I have experienced the greatest Love out there to the fullest....
And now I am not only curious about, but I yearn for a new level of human love...

I often wonder if such a love exists because I have yet to experience it, but I know it has to exist because I know the Maker of love.

I yearn for this human companionship where I see and love you for what you are and for what you're not. And where you choose me, and choose to love every part of me.


I'm just being real.